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This dream, so surreal.
I was on my way to see you for one last closure after so long to return your belongings. Things tt we had been thru together, up and downs, death of loves one. It all flashes back. I can’t deny you are really part of me, my memories.
I remember I went back to your room that I treated as mine, giving back what was yours, our laughter that’s so loud tt your mum nagged at us.
Then it flashes back t the time when my aunt pass away and you comforted me by not saying anything at all, just patting me and holding me so I wouldn’t fall apart.
And I saw granny, your sister and your dad. They all look healthy and fine, I rmb what uncle told me, asking me for a flavor but I rejected it. In my dreams I knew that I’ll never come back and see you or your family again. This is the last time.
I finally realized that What I thought is good for me isn’t helping me at all. I’ve been pushing people away, behaving like a bitch, taking people kindness for granted.
Who I’ve been, hated who I am now.
It’s not too late right? To pick myself up.
I have t truly love myself now..
“How was your day?”
“Text me when you get home so I know you’re safe”
“How are you?”
“I hope you’re feeling better”
“Have a good day today!”
“I miss you”
“Can you come over?”
“Can I come over?”
“Can I see you?”
“Can I call you?”
“Want something to drink?”
“Watch your step”
“Let’s watch a movie”
“What are you up to?”
“How is your day so far?”
“It will be okay”
“I’m here for you”
“Do you need anything?”
“Are you hungry?”
“I just wanted to hear your voice”
“You just made my day”
You don’t have to hear “I Love You” to know that someone does. Listen carefully. People speak from the heart more often than you think.
Why can’t I just keep my cool at times?
Feel so frustrated w myself.
Shouldn’t had just vent my anger on someone else becuz I’m feeling sick and tired. Why after all these time, I still do things that I hated doing in the past.
The me now is totally someone that I hate now. I need my cheerful self back
I need to recover
I need more sleep
I need comfort food
And I hope you’ll understand that I didn’t mean it